Pona emailed me and said only after being gone a month in a completely different country does she appreciate the beauty of Toronto. I can't wait to see how I react to coming home. It's strange because even though I can picture things like my house, my room, where I work, the TTC, the Danforth and so on, they are all a bit hazy. I can't wait for the overwhelming feeling of familiarity to wash over me when I step off the plane!
A lot of people have asked me if I miss home, and my answer is always the same: I feel completely comfortable in England. I have a life here, a routine, familiar places that provide comfort, friends, and family but there is a certain indescribable feeling of detachment. I think what I miss is the feeling of home, but I haven't figured a way to properly describe what home feels like (maybe it is one of those things that I don't need to explain for you to understand). It makes me wonder if I could ever feel at home anywhere other than Toronto.
I am going to Brighton with my friends on Thursday and we are staying overnight. I love it there. Hopefully it won't rain like it is now (it was really hot today but of course when I step out of the house in the evening wearing shorts it is raining and -10000? Why is English weather so annoying?)
I woke up this morning to find my bedroom door wide open and Ava sitting outside of it staring blankly at me. It was actually the scariest thing because I asked her about five times what she was doing and she didn't flinch once, just continued to sit there with this blank look on her face. I still don't know what that was all about. Hmmm.....
I'm going to miss her so much.
Someone at school gave Maude a piece of birthday cake and she fell asleep holding on to it for dear life.
She was more interested in eating it when she got up than posing for photos....
10 more days til your back gina! We will hang out asap!
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I can't wait to see you Joanna! x
ReplyDeleteI totally understand that feeling of home!! Being back, I feel like I know exactly where I'm going but at the same time I'm noticing all these things that I overlooked before. I go "huh, I've never been in that little cafe before" or "Oh! there's a gallery here!" and "OMG sky scrapers are quite something!" Gater, I defs wanna visit London again!
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